Periodically I go

through a phase where I withdraw.

I have very limited interactions with the world in real life, which is why this whole lock-down, virus isolation thing has had no affect on me. The only friends I have are internet friends, the only contact I have with the outside world is via the internet so that is what I am withdrawing from – at least in the limited way I have been involved thus far.

I’ve never been one for FB participation or Twitter or even Instagram. Over the years with FB I have deleted my account, changed my name and identity and acquired and then deleted ‘friends’. I currently have something like 12 ‘friends’, at my max involvement I think it was 37 (ok, that’s an odd number to pull out of the air).

A kabillion years ago when I started blogging I had more readers and commenters and more involvement in the blogging world – now I have few readers, few commentators and I don’t think there really is a blogging community.

I’m not complaining, not really, because any loss of  interaction is my, what shall we call it, fault? I have changed my blog name, url, platform so many, many times over the years. always looking for something new, more fun, a different identity.

Some personas I outgrew, like Dragonsalley. I’ve had a thing about dragons since I was a child and now, and for sometime, they don’t have a place in my world, real or imagined. I don’t relate to them anymore.

I’m still loving Margot Flutterby and I wish I had the guts to be her but I’m already an outlier and Margot is so far out there and totally unrelatable to anyone except me.

I used to post a link to blog posts on FB, I won’t be doing that anymore. I used to post photos on Instagram of my cat, but she’s gone. Maybe I’ll take one photo a day of something or other and post that on Instagram. What I like about IG is that one doesn’t really have so spend much time with it – and what I don’t like about IG is that one doesn’t really have to spend much time with it. There is no conversation, no discussions and lord knows I love me a good discussion.

Actually there is no discussion anywhere on the interwebz anymore – blog comments used to be a real pleasure – now the only comments that are welcome are agreeable ones – don’t dare offer a different opinion or another POV, it’s their blog after all and if you want to have an opinion then start your own blog. So much for a discussion.

Sometimes I’ve gotten annoyed, not publicly, when people comment on aspects of a post that were of the least importance, but I realize that people comment on what they can relate to. I think “No one got my point”. Well, maybe they did and they just don’t care LOL

Anyway, I’ve never written to educate others but rather to educate myself, mostly about myself. I can sometimes step back and look at who I’ve been and be interested, or confused, about who I was, or am, and how I got this way.

One of the dead horses I continue to beat is that I’ve yet to come across someone like me. Why am I always looking for someone like me? A yearning to belong? As much as I am inured to not belonging anywhere I think the desire, even need to belong, is an essential one. Does anyone really want to be the lone ranger?


6 thoughts on “Periodically I go

  1. I know what you mean about blog comments. I don’t mind disagreement as long as it’s civil, and I have a few followers who regularly disagree with me, but I know we’re cool. Generally, I don’t disagree in other people’s comments because I never know when one of their other friends will start a nasty attack. I just don’t want to deal with that. But it does get dull hearing “great post!” a hundred times a day and having to say “thank you!” 😜

    I feel part of the blogging community due to my consistent participation in some prompts. But those bloggers would fade if I quit participating ~ just like real life, where most of my friends are board game players. If I quit playing, much of our interaction would disappear.

    What do you wish people would understand about you?

    Liked by 2 people

    1. It’s not about disagreements, you like what you like, and I like what I like, there’s no discussion. I’ll give you an example of what I mean. Years ago on my blog I wrote about the concept of forgiveness, people chimed in with their concepts of forgiveness, there was a lot of back and forth as we all tried to clarify our thoughts. It was enlightening, it was interesting and yes, some folks had differing ideas – we all learned something I think and there was much food for thought. I don’t see that happening anywhere anymore – maybe I’m just looking in the wrong places.

      All of my ‘friends’ I met through blogging, so I’ve know some of these folks for 15 years or more and most of them don’t blog anymore but we still communicate through email and phone calls. I could probably sofa surf across the country, and I treasure them all BUT none of them are anything like me – not my age, my ethnicity, my background, my experiences and yet here we are.

      I don’t know what you mean when you ask “What do you wish people would understand about you”. I don’t know where that comes from. What I was talking about was commonality of personality, background, experience, POV. hell even SOME common likes and dislikes. I think my husband is the only other person on the planet besides me who doesn’t understand the concept of throw pillows or ‘decorative accessories’. And thank god for that, right?

      Liked by 2 people

  2. “Actually there is no discussion anywhere on the interwebz anymore – blog comments used to be a real pleasure – now the only comments that are welcome are agreeable ones – don’t dare offer a different opinion or another POV, it’s their blog after all and if you want to have an opinion then start your own blog. So much for a discussion.”

    xanga was a place in which, i felt, one could have meaningful discussions, but it went belly up. i find it very hard to have any sort of meaningful discussions on a blog or even during a text as the written word losses the spontaneity of an in person talk or of even a phone conversation. at least in person or on the phone, one can perceive when one is serious or not. there is something lost when one can not respond in a timely manner to the subject. though i would love to comment more on some of the blogs, past history has made me gunshy and i limit myself to hit the “like” button or to short comments. even when i go off track on my blog and talk about something which maybe controversial, i make it so no one can make comments. so, what is left? just the fluff. and the fluff is what i post. lol.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. See my answer to Paula re: the history of comments. But i certainly have to agree that much is lost, as to tenor and tone, with the written word. Somewhere I commented that I don’t write ‘funny’ but in real life I am hilarious because it is all about my tone of voice (I do accents! I’m from New Yawk and sound like it!) and my body language (I’m Italian, I wave my hands around. I can keep up my end of a conversation without saying a word!) The ‘Like’ button is the one thing I like about WP – there is no like button on Blogger, tho I do believe you can add one, or you can add Disqus easily on Blogger and add reactions it’s just that the blogs I’m still reading haven’t done any of that.

      You have a photography blog and I follow quite a few of them but there is never much to comment on aside from ‘Great photo” Last week you had a photo of a pier which I thought was most excellent – a great depth of field perspective. i should have commented to that effect. Should I go back and do that now?


Leave a Reply to Grace Cancel reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s